Welcome to my blog — best described as "A random 15-year-old's firehose of unfiltered thoughts, tech wizardry, and the occasional anime review".
Dubbed most simply as CHAOS.
転生(Tensei)Online
Tensei Server is online! Well... Mostly While what you're viewing right now originated at Tensei- It's not even near complete, and there will be more downtime as I continue setting things up and most importantly getting the wired connection working and thus PVE working as it's currently just using Debian 12 with some stuff installed and 2.4GHz WIFI Dongle. So, wish me luck on this adventure. Oh and here are the refined specs: Tensei is an Hyve Zeus with a Supermicro X9DRD-LF-TW008 mobo, Dual E5-2665s, and 128GB of DDR3(8X sticks of 16GB 2Rx4 PC3L-10600R-9-11-E2/IBM P/N 47J0170) Ram
Date of writing: 2025-07-23
Rebirth, Refresh, New life; Tensei Server Ordered
I've finally ordered Tensei server... So, time for this drowsy set of websites to actually come fully online for the first time in a while, YaCy, TGUs Alpha, Ai, Aye-eye, and Redlib will all be coming back online; Load balancing and main PHP duty will be loaded upon it, and finally... I'll be properly using PVE, at least that's the plan- See, I've been having issues with Proxmox not installing on any of the desktop-grade computers my site currently calls home, so homefully with this development It'll actually Be possible to containerize & make shit easier. Though Tensei is an Hyve Zeus with a Supermicro X9DRD-LF-TW008 mobo, Dual E5-2620V2 @ 2.1Hz(To be upgraded to dual E5-2665 at some point), and 96GB of Ram(Upgrading to 192GB right away)- It's all running on a random 2.5" 600GB Sata HDD I have laying around... So storage and read/writes won't be very good until I upgrade this aspect- Though I feel like it might be more efficient to Get a secondary storage server and netboot, since being able to use 3.5" would be a major improvement.
Date of writing: 2025-07-12
Performance
Yay! Performance. While my old-ifiying of my site may have decreased performance in the short term- it's good now! After lots of tinkering I've recieved 100s across the board from lighthouse.
Not philosophically—actually. Is there *any* reason to do anything?
Is there a reason we shouldn’t stay at home, never go outside, and welcome the laziness?
Is there truly any purpose to our actions, our effort? Is there any useful effect to writing this very piece?
Ponder those questions—or don’t. What’s the purpose of even pondering them, when you could be sleeping, watching television, or generally relaxing?
Would it be better to just lay in bed and “not do anything”?
Laziness Theory says: yes.
There’s no purpose to doing anything. We should all just lie in our beds, not care what’s happening on our phones, and just do—whatever.
So why subscribe to Lazinessism?
Why not? It’s better than trying to “find meaning in nature” or “unroll the world through logic.” It’s much easier to do nothing—to be lazy.
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The Ten Commandments
Don’t worry, this isn’t lovey-dovey Christianity or moralistic crap—this is peak Lazinessism. And don’t stress, they’re completely optional:
1. Don’t get up except to eat or defecate.
2. Masturbate at least once a month.
3. Never open a door—force someone else to do it.
4. Trauma-dump on Reddit under an alt at least once.
5. Try coding for a few days, get half-decent, then realize how crap being a dev is yet still have a homelab hosting a single 1kB webpage over unsecured http.
6. Own a massive Steam library you never play.
7. Watch an AI Vtuber at least once a month.
8. Never buy goods in person—exploit online services so someone else does it for you.
9. Fantasize about being in an Isekai with a harem.
10. Ignore anything you’re told to do if you disagree with it.
And thus, those are the commandments I pass down unto thee.
Laziness, a pinnacle. Our “Final frontier”
Why try to explore space? We’d never get anywhere in our lifetimes. Never see the universe, so why try? Stay at home, watch the sacred scroll of redo of healer and seek joy in others discomfort.
Why try, when our comfort, nutrition, and entertainment is all that truly matters.
There is no reason, so just be lazy, do nothing.
Hymns & Chants:
I shalt not cross my doorstep I shalt not do this truly I shalt not get up I shall be lazy I shall be crazy I shall be reborn I shall live this life to its emptiest
Hymn II: The Gospel of the Couch
Let the couch be my temple Let the blanket be my shroud Let the flicker of the TV Be the only light I seek I shall rise for no man Nor mission, nor meal For the DoorDash driver Is my only prophet And sleep is my holy wine. Chant of the Sacred Snooze
Snooze once. Snooze twice. Snooze until the day is night. Dreams are better than to-dos, Wakefulness is just a ruse. Let deadlines fade like distant storms, Let comfort take its perfect form. Hymn III: The Eternal Scroll
Oh infinite scroll, feed me thy void Let dopamine drip like ancient oil I shall not pause at reels or threads For in you lies the lie of purpose Give me cats, cringe, VTubers, memes And let my soul rot in peace. Chant of No-Return (To Inbox Zero)
I will not reply. I will not respond. Your email will perish in limbo. Unread, unclicked, unbothered. Notifications are mere suggestions— And I do not take suggestions. Hymn IV: The Holy Lag
Blessed be the buffering icon For it gives me time to not care Blessed be the lag For it mirrors my spirit Frozen, spinning, Stuck between frames of ambition. The Recliner Psalm
My chair knows my form My chair knows my sins It welcomes all posture Crooked and slouched May the lumbar support Forever be optional And the remote—within reach. Chant of the Divine Disconnect
Turn the WiFi off, oh Lord Not to meditate, But to avoid Zoom No meetings, no muting, Just the hum of silence And a screen with nothing left to load.
Date of writing: 2025-07-11
Atheism, logical deduction, & forced religion
The following is an uneditted teaser of an upcoming post
Atheism, Religion; polar opposites - but lets logically think.
There’s a growing movement in teens and young adults to reject religion and accept atheism(Vul: Heathen). This has been led by 3 major issues/causes- which are as follows:
1) Their parents forced them to go to church 2) They logic'd it out a figured out religion is a construct created over millennia to explain phenomenon and cope with stress 3) They just hate religion
Now, these reasons are the majority, but there are other reasons, keep that in mind.
First of all let me say before we go any further: I’m not trying to persuade you to become an atheist, simply sharing my thoughts and conclusions.
[End of teaser]
Date of writing: 2025-07-07
Warning: This contains trace amounts of spaghetti code.