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Warning: This contains trace amounts of spaghetti code
Philosophy V2(/∞)
Life tis but a fickle construct, an ever changing web of ideas and ideals, morals and morality, death and heartbreak–a construct, that’s all it is, a fragile thing, a scaffold per se. We will all die someday, whether by natural or unnatural causes–it will happen, it can not be prevented, so while we may not latibulate and cry in a corner at the idea of death, we just fudgel and pretend life will continue… until it stops, a sudden, unforeseen end–a final, irreversible end. We all will die one day, and we don’t bawl and shout “O but a day!”, we don’t react.Death, an ultimate, irreversible end; some crave it, some flee from it, but no matter who thou art, no matter thy wealth or thy religion, thou will die, and we all accept that, there’s no reverse, no savepoint, a final, unescapable end. Some may cry at the idea of death, at its suddenness and finality, but the fact is–we all will die, one way or another, it’s natural, it’s fine, there’s no reason to cry or mourn–tis but a construct, an idea, an ideal, that life is forever, unending, unyielding, but it’s not, all of our skin will rot, our body turn to oil and dirt, our minds gone to the wind, gone, erased forever, never to be seen again.
When the "rules" are such a drag, you become the hentai Paw Patrol — SHIMONETA: A Pervert's Love Story in the universal language of Fetishism
While some movies and shows challenge the norm, Shimoneta doesn't even stop to ask if those norms exist.Shimoneta is a erotic anime based around a world where "The concept of Dirty Jokes Doesn't Exist". In this perversion-forsaken world a law has banned all expression of dirty jokes and perversion, to the point of banning Masturbation, due to this “Perversion Terrorists” come into existence, these people go into public and shout dirty jokes, spread Pornography, to… very strong fetishes, and even share how to masturbate and create sex toys at home. Overall it’s a great anime for those who want to explore their sexuality or even question perversion. Let's just say… *strokes furiously*(BEARD, BEARD, BEARD! GET YOUR MIND OUT OF THE GUTTER) The modern internet would enjoy it in a very… certain way- So, would I recommend you watch it? Sure, but if you do watch it–Make sure you’re alone…
Date of writing: 2025-05-26
"poetry"
First I have to say: Don't take this Too Seriosuly, it's Partially Satirical; though does represent real issues:
M - onarchies, and overruled terror, for all that is full of loyalty and honor, is also the worst offender of humanity, a reason to ponder O - pen, our minds are, but to who I wonder? N - Othing is great, we all question fate, but who is our creator? D - ays go on, through season and years, forever in stone, they record our tears A - pes we came from, to they we return, barbaric and traitorous, forever animalistic, in all these years Y - ellow, the color of caution, the color seen for years, that warns of our demise
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T - raitors they call us, for questioning fate, for the world is ruined, our hearts are dead, and religion is an illusion of ideals to create U - tter chaos the world is, for all of us say, it’s all fine today, but tomorrow isn’t privy to my fate E - veryone accepts, and no one questions the hate in this world, on what is it based? For all is the best, today and tomorrow, the world is in chaos, but me it shall not bother S - atirical this is not, for everyone to see, this world is in chaos, and what we can hardly say is free, the world is a circus, and we are the juggler D - ecency, an illusion so bright, to all it appears kind, but to all it shall show–forever and now, that were all the world’s fools, and the king has deemed us jesters A - ppreciation, the thing were supposed to do, but the environment we kill, without remorse I say, to all the world we inhabit, we are nothing more than murderers Y - es, is what we all say, to the saving of the environment, but to whoever we communicate, they all know–we’re not such donators, for personal gain we do, and for the environment we sacrifice, our hearts are rotten, and our lungs are leaden
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W - eeping we do, for all is a mere drape, a cover to the true horror, a horror we brought about E - xcel, we’re told to; but this world is baited, for those with a logical heart, shall fall to the illogical trait D - read is to the fill line of our heart, for all is ending, and we do not negotiate N - ever is when we will take action, forever still, we all have this ideological hate E - nter the truth we shall, for the lies are paramount, and are heavily linked to our fate S - adness, a thing all of us feel, from deaths to heavens, to unlogical ideals, our world is in chaos, but foretold it was, we didn’t listen though, hence our terrible fate D - ata is what we look at, too small in amount, for the present is an illusion and the bigger picture we shall not create A - pothecaries, are what we need, the Romeo did state, for the world is in ruins, and the end is an escape Y - ears, years of time, not decades or centuries, our lifetime it shall taint
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T - ogether we stand, united in front, however weak and heretic, our front shall take a stand, a stand for our fate, the chaotic world these traitors create H - ealth we shall not care, for pleasure is love, and love is hate; for all the items they have, we shall take U - psert we shall, a new record in history, for all is recorded–a road to our deadly fate R - ecreate, the thing we shall do, when the world falls to anarchy–and no hierarchy can substantiate S - ummon we shall, our demons from hell, our sins ever show, in marks and scars, forever we will rott, it darkness in pain, for the horrors we’ve done–to the human race D - eprecated the world is, a forgot branch in our life tree, forever forgotten in words written long ago, for that we still hate A - y, we say, for pirates we become, for monopolies abound, their profits we are, nameless in kind, in the bay we make our stand–a stand for the human race Y - ell we shall, into the wind it goes, for our words are forgotten, forgotten by this ruined human race
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F - un is a universal trait, that none of us see, for madness is hope, and depression is free R - unning is something lots of Americans wonder who’d dare to create, for exercise is hard, and us Americans so do hate I - deology is dead and ideals just make us Irate, for all that is ideal, is also impossible to create D - eath is the end, a bittersweet end, for all that rises, must also return, to the earth we kill slowly--A deadly fate A - rt, an imperfect solution to humanity's hate, for all may hope for beauty, but terror they shall make Y - ou, are the solution, or part of it at least, for a world that’s filled with death and hate, we all shall follow thee
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S - aints there are not, for the world is empty, in soul and mind, we flee, for what does it matter? A - rches we see, on the way to hell, our sins he shall not forgive, forever in non-peace T - utored we need to be, by a lifeform more advanced, for logical is false, and ignorance is peace U - pset we are, at the past mistakes we make, what we can’t undo, but create unmistakably R - eady we are not, for a world of logic, out logic is false, and so is philosophy D - irections we head, for the sins we make, chase us through our lives A - che we shall, at the heartbreak and pain, forever caused by us Y - ee heart is dead, and soul abound, to hell I tell, while in immortal toil we stand about, our torment endless, and our mind blank, forever we scream, our torment is escape —-S - acrifes we shall make, to heaven or hell, no one is yet so dreadful to create, a decision we need, salvation or death, both are equally wanted, but one we shall behead U - nder the folds of wealth and grandeur, we make our final stand, in peace and death and sacrilegion we shall find our escape, forever untold, our tormented fate N - inth is the end, not the seven or eight, our extra warnings are gone, and soon will be the human race D - ieties abound in soul and heart, forever the sound–the god’s eternal hate A - thiesm is no better, pure logic, no hope, though we may follow–a fool's hope Y - ou we find, forever our savior–and devil alike, for you shall decide our fate, if only your small sway shall be set in place, the world shall follow, a forever hopeful place.
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H - elp we need, our torment shalln’t end, our punishment forever burning inside our heads, forever in torment, and never an end, for our minds are clouded, and our thoughts shoved up our rear ends. A - sses we are, forever idiots, our minds splay in confusion–in hope and panic L - ess of this false hope we need, forever a tease, never given to us, further then a nose bleed L - eprechauns abound, but forever out of reach, the pot at the end of the rainbow we shall never reach O - h crap we say, our mind in shreds, for our hearts are blackened–so ravenish W - in we shall never, this eternal war, our body in pieces, our mind not even shedding a tear E - ver will be reach our goal? Forever out of reach, our minds are filled with panic, and our eyes bleach E - ven with these challenges and idols, these gods and hopes, our future remains cloudy–forever untold N - ever shall we stop, never shall fail, never will we give up, and tear down the veil, forever our hearts lay in tears–and the devil inside us all, forever our gears, the gears that turn us round ,every day that turn and creak–a gear system so complex, even smarter than a chimpanzee.
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H - ope, a curse worse than death, false hope abound, and forever around O - pen our minds aren’t, they aren’t and shalln’t ever be P - rison our minds are in, a jail for our thoughts and ideas E - veryone has a part, those small and large, weak and strong, rich and poor, society is one entity, we need to united and stand together
I - deals are false hope, never shall they help or contribute to a future we want S - hielding ourselves from tyranny instead of ending it will come back and bite us in the arse
F - *cked we are, future and past, forever a species, united in hate A - trophy the human race race is, a slow decline to madness L - ies fill the world, false hope and ruin, the hope we cling to together S - lim our chances are, of survival and redemption, of death and life E - ach part is a piece of one whole, a united front, against the god’s furry–a fate we brought upon ourselves
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Boredom galore, go stub a toe, to me there is no antidote, for you have no hope, this isn't a trope, and everyone's name is joe
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Gleeful in hope, go run into a tree, run around with glee, and hope you end up hopefully–a hopeful plea
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The world is in immortal peace Or at least that’s what we say till we look to the east The horrors of the world unfold in front of us
The light finally peeking through the crease A crevice in societies illusion An illusion we all see in haste
An illusion of this “Peace” A universal ideal But a terrestrial annoyance
What would the human race be without this trait? A chimpanzee or an ape? Without this illusion are we even the human race? Can we keep up the pace? Or will we be ruined like the rest of the human race?
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In front of me in class you might stand, But behind in intelligence Thy brain is rotted, forever a void of nonsense O! The tyranny, the hate, who shalt make me irate? Forever thee shall stay low in pace– In brains, and brain space Forever A moron I hate
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Traitor you are, forever thou shaltn’t be more Forever a traitor, a betrayer who forged–so mighty and true A bond to never be broken, the world a rotten hue For thou hast broken that bond, a bond eternal
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When thou hast retorted And I have accepted Forever apart still– Though in part together While days may be part
And thy heart may be full Then forever together we stand– Though in a way of being apart And forever opposed Forever a heart of darkness A illusion to unfold
And a lung full of water A mind submersed Forever my friend, yet so opposed So forever thy shall stay by my side In friendship and war, we’ll not decide
But we never fight, only shout and speak For forever we are, both together and apart A face full of tears And smile alike
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Hopefully yet deadly Deadly yet hopefully A paradoxical existence So bittersweet and cold
Yet the paradox stands hopeful; both true and false A Paradoxical existence So dreadful–I’ll cope
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Your death, your end, your destiny’s shalln’t be appended For your end is great a hopeful, a great time to be alive Not bittersweet in the slightest Everyone hates you so P, P, Putinnnnn Putinnnnn F*ck you, kill you, nuke you in the arse F*ck you, kill you, let us puncture your heart P, P, Putinnnnn Putinnnnn Let us f*ck you up, let us see your guts P, P, Putinnnnn We hate you so, hate so great I’d shoot a bow Human, Devil, Dictator, All at once, yet so f*cked(F*cking stupid) So– P, P, Putinnnnn Putinnnnn F*ck you, kill you, nuke you in the arse F*ck you, kill you, let us puncture your heart Everyone hates you so —-
Wake up and take a look at the world For the world is in chaos Anarchy– Patriarchy, Old ways stay steady, new ways are called deadly A societal rift, a tribunal The shift, a tilt Anarchy, our savior, The devil, our eternal deity, Sins, mistakes, hopeless takes, The human race, we aren’t so great
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The world is shit, a societal drift Who’d guess, why don’t you take a H*t(DO NOT, this is bad for you) ‘Cause the world is dead, an eternal grave A grave surrender, forever astray
Date of writing: 2025-05-22
Educational technology and over restricting educational content
Intro
Have you ever looked at a school or work filter or blocking service and thought “Who in their right mind thought this was a good implementation?”, Join the club.
“Modern” filters like Securly, Blocksi, and Gogaurdian use the same blocking methods as they did 20 years ago, and did they implement those archaic blocking methods any better than the first internet filters? Not really.
While the modern internet has some content like pornography, computer viruses, and gore that should be blocked, and sure gaming shouldn’t be the first priority in school, but most modern filters block content that is Educational, sometimes even blocking it for the reason of being “Educational”. Seems backwards? It is.
These filters block educational sites such as coding resources like w3schools and Replit, they block resources ADHD students like me rely on, youtube music to help my brain concentrate, the decency of allowing me to install a dark mode extension, blocking a student at the school’s personal blog, when it contains nothing that could be even vaguely considered inappropriate for school.
Wildcards and overblocking.
Do these filters actually succeed in blocking games and other unwanted content? Nope, they let all that through while blocking legitimate sites. For example let’s go through how archaic this filter is with an example: One student wants to access “https://www.sites.google.com/site/xgames6996”, a site chock full of games and tools students shouldn’t be using, another wants to access “https://sites.google.com/lesliehawks.net/history” a site about the history of the school website, and the last student wants to access “google.com”, guess which students are blocked?
If you said none you're right, if you said all, you’re also correct. Lots of these filters are so imprecise that that can’t differentiate subdomains, they interpret sites.google.com, google.com, mail.google.com, all as the same block entry of *.google.com/*, so if you block it? You’re screwed, 75% of the internet is blocked and you have to use bing, but if you don’t block it? All the traffic gets through, both those genuine emails and historical sites, and the unwanted games.
So, is there an actual way to solve this problem? Yes, there’s one big problem that these smaller problem root from: URL level precision, Now while original firewall may have used overarching rules to block entire domains to save precious storage space in the 1990s, modern computers have more than enough overhead to store the string “https://www.sites.google.com/site/xgames6996” or “https://www.sites.google.com/site/*game*” instead of “*.google.com/*”.
This code is from the leaked 2022 source code for the Blocksi Enterprise Edition Chrome extension. Now while most of the people reading this probably can’t make sense of it, you don’t really need to, the important part is that it normalizes the URL stored in the Database to remove and wildcards(*), a wildcard means any value can be put there as in our example earlier with *.google.com which also blocked mail.google.com and sites.google.com, so any string can be substituted for *.
Now why is this important you might ask? Well the existence of a function to remove wildcards for displaying to the user in the first place gives good reason to believe that the database storing blocked urls, is saving them with wildcards as opposed to more specific URL strings. This means the filter treats entire subdomains as one block entry, which makes fine-grained control impossible and causes legitimate sites to be unfairly blocked.
Impact on instructional time and student learning
As for specific domains like a student who goes to the school’s personal blog being blocked, that’s not a specific error on the part of the code. While it is a problem that such a site is being flagged, it’s more of a problem that it gets blocked before a human actually looks at it and checks to make sure they’re actually blocking something they should be. One last thing before we conclude, it’s not just websites that have a false-positive problem, it also exists within the Google suite of tools, Educational videos from channels like LegalEagle are blocked, such as his video I Joined With 500 Law Firms To Fight The Trump Administration and along with a similar video discussing how EO 14230 was blocked, not only should these videos not have any trigger keywords, they’re actually educational content, diving into the specific laws and regulations used to reach a decision, while gaming content creator from massive gaming channel is easily accessible.
Personal challenges faced due to filter
Such blocks of educational sites have personally affected me when trying to research for a individual project in my Modern World Issues class I was doing I titled “Corruption, Control, And Cases”, a project that goes over concerns of Corruption with the !TRUMP memecoin dinner, Control with the checks and balances of the US government, and how they may have been compromised to some degree, and Cases such as Civil Action No. 25-716 (BAH) which overturned the illegitimate executive order EO 14230. I ran into several issues accessing Legal Eagle and similar videos, which go in-depth from a perspective of law on these issues.
Conclusion
So to conclude, current filters and blocks fall behind technological advancements in the modern era, block sites they shouldn’t, and allow sites they shouldn’t. They use the same basic code and wildcard containing databases as even older filters, and overall do more harm than good in their current state.
Date of writing: 2025-05-20
Dragons, PHP, and Japanese: In Memoria Tomxcd—With Hope for the Future
Music for post:
In a both sad, and gleeful event, my programming buddy, and friend, Tomxcd, has graduated highschool; while this post is meant to commemorate our great time together, and hope for a continued future of remote code talk and website upgrades, I will not be sharing any sensitive personal information about him.
Tom is a great guy, he's funny, smart, and has an optimistic outlook on life. He has a good understanding of various programming (and normal) languages; from PHP to Javascript, from English to Japanese to German; he has a skill set in almost every field imaginable.
He often updates his website and is devoted to the highest Onion level tomfoolery.
While I, and many others, will miss his lunch room PHP chit-chat, his spur of the moment ideas, and his guidance on how to swear in Japanese; I hope his future will hold true to his values of "Dragons, Dragons, and Dragons", and he will succeed in whatever field he ends up going into.
While shedding tears won't be in order, I have one (Hopefully not last) message to you Tom:
From the first moment I talked to you during lunch after you donated blood, to the last time I saw you skipping towards the exit yelling “I’m finished! I’m finished! I’m finally finished!” With glee for all the school to hear, You were a great fellow nerd and friend, and I will forever remember the hours of time we spent looking at random projects, each other's websites, blog posts, and generally having a great time. So dear Tom, forever will you be a fellow nerd, friend, Dragon enthusiast, and an overall great guy. Forever will your reactions to my messy code be in my memory; Forever you will have the funniest blog posts I’ve ever seen; Forever will you be the only one who cared to take a second glance at my code and actually care about it; Forever will you be my friend.
While our time together may have been short, it was the best Trimester I've ever had, the best takes I've ever taken seriously, and the best friend I've ever had the pleasure of chatting with. So Tom, go into the world with a positive outlook on life, a great mind, and great friends; Tom, Succeed in life and make the most of it; Tom, Live a long, happy life, and make many many jokes. Tom go into the world knowing I, and many others, are thinking of you; Tom, know that we will never forget you; Tom, never will I forget how much of a great person you are.
PS: Finally updated my blog to use EB Garamond, your favorite font.
—With great outlooks on life: Joshua Thayer, stuck behind you in age, yet so alike in heart.
